30 AUG, 2010 (sunny)
Today wakeup early for AHC exam. meet Wanting and Rachel who promised be me and baowen model. thanks for Teckchye too:)) reached home 5pm. too tired and sick jiu fall asleep.
SAD TO THE MAX!!!! cant meet baby at night to play arcade. haiish so sad. fever up again.
EMO again! you think i want? 7 days ago you call me go die, i got that thinking of running out to the road. if i die you will be happy or regret for wad you say. but think of my family, frens and Baby, i didnt. if i die will you miss me? will you love me so much more? will you keep my photo and chat with me every night? or will you find other girlf and just forget me???
i'm sad who noe? nobody wants listen to me. even the ones who willing to listen to me i just cant say out y i'm so so so sad. i want to cry, cry like no tmr till mayb sun. HOW??? i noe you wont read my blog. even you read you will start say me. YES i'm bo liao. but do you really understand wad i'm thinking and wad i really want? there's many who care for me but you seems so bochup at all.
somethings are hard to say. i just want to say:
I WONT ASK MUCH IF I DUN LOVE YOU AT ALL!!
i tot you will understand me. you noe i'm stubborn but you oso stubborn. i tried to give and take..
i tried to cry alone, somehow sometimes cry loud abit cos i cant breathe and you noticed. i said lies to you like i'm not crying or cos of other reasons but after that you ignored. i cried cos i want to be tired. i want to sleep well after finish crying so that i wont think..
I'M REALLY TIRED!!! REALLY!! i wish to go back to the past, the past when i cried you comfort me till i stop, i'm cold you gave me your jacket, i'm tired you lend me your shoulder and many!!!
